When I was in high school one of my favorite television shows was Ally McBeal. It was a fun, quirky show about a young lawyer named Ally McBeal. One of the fun things about the show was that it would show the things that she would imagine. For instance, if someone said something that made her feel as though she had been shot through the heart we might see an image of her getting shot by an arrow. At one point in time on the show she went to see a therapist. One of the things that the therapist had her do was come up with a theme song for her life. Whenever she was feeling down or discouraged she was supposed to imagine that her theme song was playing behind her. Whenever she did this on the show it was like she was pumped through with whatever it was she needed – courage, confidence, determination, etc.
For some reason this idea of a theme song has always stuck with me. Over the years I have attempted to find a song that could be my theme song. I have tried out countless songs, but none of them ever seemed quite right and they all eventually fell to the wayside. A couple of years ago my best friend introduced me to the musical Little Women. I really liked the music so I purchased the album from iTunes and put it on my iPod. As I listened to the album there was one song that began to resonate with me. The song was called “Astonishing”. I started listening to that song over and over until I knew all the words. While singing along one day it finally dawned on me – I had found my theme song.
Whenever I am feeling down, overwhelmed, discouraged, or ready to quit all I have to do is belt this song out a few times and I feel completely rejuvinated. It is as though the songwriters explored the desires and longings of my heart and turned them into the lyrics of this song. After over 10 years of searching, I finally have my theme song and it is just as wonderful as I always imagined it would be.
What about you? Do you have a song that you listen to when you need a boost? Is there something else you use other than music? Let me know in the comments.
I thought home was all I’d ever want
My attic all I’d ever need.
Now nothing feels the way it was before
And I don’t know how to proceed.
I only know I’m meant for something more
I’ve got to know if I can be
There’s a life
That I am meant to lead
A life like nothing I have known
I can feel it
And it’s far from here
I’ve got to find it on my own
Even now I feel it’s heat upon my skin.
A life of passion that pulls me from within,
A life that I am aching to begin.
There must be somewhere I can be
I’ll find my way
I’ll find it far away
I’ll find it in me unexpected and unknown
I’ll find my life in my own way
Here I go
There’s no turning back
My great adventure has begun
I may be small
But I’ve got giant plans
To shine as brightly as the sun
I will blaze until I find my time and place
I will be fearless,
Surrendering modesty and grace
I will not disapear without a trace
I’ll shout and start a riot
Be anything but quiet
I’ll be Astonishing